How do you number the Stars, the Sands of the Seas, or the Possibilities

Last night, Will and I drove into town and had an impromptu date-night. We headed to the movie "Prince Of Persia".

It's a good movie- you will probably like it if you like either romance movies or action flicks or fantasy films. Or maybe all of the above.

But, after our movie and a stop to play at my parents' home, we went for a walk, admiring the fact that it was one of the first nights that the wind was warm enough to keep us at a comfortable temperature without the mosquitoes getting at us. The stars, way off in the sky, mirrored the infinite possibilities of our course of life from that moment on.

A few days ago, we talked about how all the events in our separate lives have truly led us to where we are; together. How two very opposite youths, two people separated in a million ways, could possibly have found each other at the precise time that it was. Any other time in our lives, we would have never even met, or never have fallen in love, and possibly, never have wanted to.

Is it "destiny"? Is it just part of "The Plan"?
If it IS destiny, then, perhaps, no matter what OTHER choices we had made, we still would have been on THIS spot today? That, somehow, God (or whatever force you believe in) would have moved us pawns into our exact spots, no matter what 'force' played the other half of the board. We were meant to be standing in this path, this square in the proverbial chessboard, at this moment.

If we could really turn the sands of time backwards, where would we take our lives to? What point would we revisit, hoping to transform what happened into something new? What would we be willing to 'change'?

Because, in reality, changing one little thing could make very serious repercussions and consequences. The butterfly effect. There may be no children. There may be less knowledge. There may be different careers. Different loves. Different perspectives. And, for me, the only thing I would change would mean that I couldn't be married to Will... and the prospect of that makes me realize that, instead, every tear that was shed was worth it. I can't go back in time to change something 'bad' that brought so much good. Will and I talked about what we could and would change for his life. There's a few things, yes, but there were essential lessons to be learned from that which have enabled OUR marriage to succeed. Together, we learn from our individual pasts EVERY day.

He once said that there are just so many 'What Ifs'. But, I concluded that, while there are one MILLION What Ifs, the What IS is one in a million.